Friday, July 30, 2010

Journies of Self

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like there is no inspiration in ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING? Like...nothing to make you happy. Nothing that sparks your interest. Nothing that brings a smile.

I thought today was one of those days. We ran out of toilet paper...

And I was having a bad day just being a this poor girl here.

 And I felt like, though I cleaned and tried to help out and was attempting to be a good older sister and a responsible daughter, no one appreciated me. :(

But then -- a bright spot.
How could this be possible?
I have no idea.
But I do know this...

a picture can really save your life sometimes. I found this one I took of my dear friend, from a few years back. And it brought me a glimpse of a smile.

I kept searching, and found more and more that reminded me that I have friends that love me and a family that --though they may not show it in the best way at all times-- does appreciate the person that I am and the things that I do.

When you're having a day where you feel like you might want to scream at a thousand people, do something reckless, or become an undercover spy for the rest of your life....try looking through a photo album. You'd be surprised how much good stuff can come of just taking time to remaniss and remember the things that have made us smile. And though friends in the pictures may have faded from my life, and I may have lost some loved ones that are shown there too, I can remember that the smile in the picture lasts forever...and it can still be impacting today. You can have a day as chill as this...

And you can want to sing "The moment I wake up...after I put on all my make up...I say a little prayer for youuuuuu"... :) (link here: song to make you happy)

And you'll want to dance in the rain without a care in the world. I wish upon you a day where you can feel as marvelous as this:


  1. This is a great post, sweetheart. Please know that I am always here for you during the good and bad days. I love you, cous'!

  2. I'm praying for you sis! Something that always helps me is to focus on all that is going well in my life and see all the blessings that God has brought me. I love you sis!

  3. Kristiana, You are such a wonderful inspiration! I just had an idea to do something for you that you won't know about for at least a few years, but I'm going to do it!!! And for now, I send you a hug and a kiss from me! The owner of that enormous butt on your post!!!! BAHAHA! If that was a pun, it would be an HILARIOUS image!!! HAHAHA hahaha hehehe heehee... oh boy...

  4. I know what you mean about not being able to find inspiration. It takes a lot of thinking and inspiration to write a song. If you don't have it, you have to make yourself focus on the task at hand. And hope for the best. Some of my best work has come from days like that.